Collette

Today is just like any other day. Just a little more of a zombie. Just staying close to reality like gravity and our feet. Just, just maybe a lil happier. I could fall asleep at any moment right now. My eyebags are starting to seek more attention then any other parts of my face. I was reading my daily horoscope earlier. It speaks my soul, i believed.. I don't know, sometimes, i could "cursed" them like a sailor. They made me think too much. Yet sometimes, they smoothed a rough edge. On a more personal note. I've seen so much the past few weeks.. So much i picked up and learnt along the way. Like picking those pretty little seashells by the beach and learning their names praying that behind that veneer, there's something as beautiful as it is on the outside. I threw a few away.. the ugly ones.. and.. those that made my fingers hurt. I have this fear. This fear of hurt of picking the wrong seashell again.

I contemplated(can't remember how many times) if i should rid everything on my mind, here. Here. The public space. The place where i'll always lie to tell the truth. Right, blame it on my beautiful flaw. I wrote it. I did. Might delete. See how.