Secrets

Secrets are like soft heads. Designed to tumble through your body, tends to stay in you, which means a surgeon has to cut you open in another place, to get the sucker out. In this case. Time was the surgeon. Time decides for you when to free those secrets. And that is when you found someone who can join hands with that right time.

I took this what's your true fear survey last night. I would never have suspected alone was to be the result. Never ever. Yet when i further read the description, the words just became an old friend. A very old friend. Like it knew me more than i do myself. But then again, how could it be alone? I thought i like alone. I could, i would, i might, just want to be. Why can't dissapointment be the first or death.. But death was the least. More of zero percent. Which is very true. Well surveys don't matter anyway..

When i was young

I didn't know.. till now that i've always been living with a devil.. I'm 20 now.. which makes this denial about 16 years old. I don't know how i feel or how i should feel. You know.. always believing people can't really be that bad.. would you know.. But this permenant realization like a personal time machine brought me to my first acquaintance with this devil. I was 5 yrs old. I stood by this particular row in this wonderland.. looking at the price tag. $79.90. I was madly in love with what came with it. A mammoth doll-house (more of a baby elephant now). My mind was playing. Directing. Constructing the many scenes i can involve my Barbie dolls in. Then i focused on the numbers beside the dollar sign again. Too expensive. But the devil bought it. He paid off the evil demeanor children usually presume on a stepdad. That was the first meeting.

I had forgetten i hadn't ate anything until evening. Wow. I am actually capable of that. I am on my 3rd coffee now. Nice. Back to my book. Whole truth. And i learnt something~ why waste time discovering the truth when you can so easily create it? This is nice.

Best movie ever made.

Sweet dreams are made of these

Right. 3rd day of 2009. While drafting this, the tv plays Memoirs of Geisha. If i could i would want to feel how its like dressing up as one. That maybe one of the to do things this year and travel. Yes. Travel. Still saving up for the HK trip in March. I read every page of the National Geographic Travellers series. Santorini, Greece being the 23rd most rated countries would still be top on my imaginary list and then comes Perugia, Italy.. a country where you can find love..chocolates are in the package. Like the Baci (kisses) chocolates, when u peel off the foil, you will see a slip of paper and on it prints one of shakespeare's love quotes. This would be next time. I hope.