When i was young

I didn't know.. till now that i've always been living with a devil.. I'm 20 now.. which makes this denial about 16 years old. I don't know how i feel or how i should feel. You know.. always believing people can't really be that bad.. would you know.. But this permenant realization like a personal time machine brought me to my first acquaintance with this devil. I was 5 yrs old. I stood by this particular row in this wonderland.. looking at the price tag. $79.90. I was madly in love with what came with it. A mammoth doll-house (more of a baby elephant now). My mind was playing. Directing. Constructing the many scenes i can involve my Barbie dolls in. Then i focused on the numbers beside the dollar sign again. Too expensive. But the devil bought it. He paid off the evil demeanor children usually presume on a stepdad. That was the first meeting.

I had forgetten i hadn't ate anything until evening. Wow. I am actually capable of that. I am on my 3rd coffee now. Nice. Back to my book. Whole truth. And i learnt something~ why waste time discovering the truth when you can so easily create it? This is nice.