You get smaller as the world gets big. The more you know, you know you don't know shit.

I don't want to be like my mother or my sister. A night ago, i was. And i come home with bumps and bruises. But it was a night i really paid attention to the people i need to grip hold of. Thank you. So the morning I remembered shouting in Faith's lavatory because the shower thing came off and there went the towels, walls and me, soaked. Then i found out i'm having aches at the side of my tummy. Maybe its cause i've not been eating much. Coming more than a week? Frankly, i'm not dieting. I lost my appetite in the process of living life. After settling with Faith's homemade prata and sausage/cheese, i started facebooking. I only slept 3 hours and i'm wide awake. I spent my remaining time in bed deciding a name for my future puppy. I told everyone. Okay I indulge in something else too quick. Nevertheless, it makes me happy. The hills was playing and came out a song both soni and me sang with it like for more than 3 times. With all the like like american speech, Soni in her spongebob belt decided to talk about another spongebob she has. Yellow sponge printed on pencil case.. I just laugh out loud

Days ago, i created a post but left it in drafts. A draft of few words. I think that my past week could be piece together to make one story. I wanted to create one. Then i started pondering and comtemplating.. i am incapable of being honest. About more than 12 hours i had locked myself in my room. I realised i've to move. Strange, cause its a combination of moving literally and unliterally. I'm gonna watch a movie tonight. But for now, my first step out the house is another new beginning. Bye old Genevieve.

http://www.reasonstoleave.net/

"Life is the ability to feel so happy, you think your insides are going to explode. It's being so upset or disappointed, you feel as if your stomach just dropped ten feet out of place. It's running so hard, you can barely breathe. It's the feeling of panic when you know you've been caught doing something wrong. It's having that sudden rush before you kiss someone you care about. It's opening your eyes and feeling them sting because you spent the whole night crying. It's letting people go because new ones come in, and all the while realizing that life doesn't have a purpose unless you let it."

murder on the dancefloor

10p.m, everyone started dissolving to the music, feet wallowed in sand and moves anticipated by the moment. Booze has already reached its destinated places, and then there were two types of people, the viewers and the displayers. So I lost the time, my earring, my clothes. Seriously, i'll need a guard to secure my stuffs that or i bring less next time. Both.

Okay i didn't sleeeepp since 3a.m when we got to faith's. I should be going home soon if i could just find a decent clothe to wear back. My lost and found stuffs are hopeless currently. Which is why i'm still here.

Its like just hours ago but i can't wait to go to another party again, with the same lovely ppl.

"That's the thing about girls. Everytime they do something pretty, even if they're not much to look at, or even if they're sort of stupid, you fall half in love with them, and then you never know where the hell you are. Girls. Jesus Christ. They can drive you crazy. They really can." Do i? do i?;]

I can't imagine myself 60 yrs old. Not because of the visibility of the dying body but the predicted image of my dependency on people i love to live. Yesterday i lingered around the toys section reminiscing the hopes on collecting those plastics. They were the world to me. In the end i picked up a box that says; create your own doll. Perfect. I always wanted to make one just that i want to make one from scratch, not what the box offered. So in the end i walked out of that utopia with bare hands.

Me says: Can u come up with a phrase that best describe me?
Jonne: mmm..
Me says: don't have to be careful.
Jonne: Strange, the flower burned by the ever cruel rays of the sun, then drowned by the rain... yet it always emerges stronger and more beautiful.

aww beautiful....

So on the same morning Dan and i had happy meal. Like when was the laast timeee.. 10 yrs ago? Okay i only wanted the toy. The only toy tt makes me all giggly inside;; Bloo. Such a splendid remedy. I would need it.. you know, for preparation. So i think, i might have a job. I need cash. Cash for food, for soaps, for mobile, for travelling. This month would be my busiest. Lets see, 2 bdays around the corner, work and school, alot of packing and moving to the new house and lastly the helloween party! (can't wait). What have you thought of dressing up as? I'm thinking rouge with a wig.

Ps: Thank you people for voting! I love you even more.